I really should have written a new blog ages ago but things have been crazy !!
Hopefully I can give a few people some hope, 5 months ago I got full custody of my kids , my wife’s attempts at alienation and false allegations finally back fired on her . I’ll try to blog more .
Today I have a meeting with social services to find out if they back me for custody of my children . It’s been a long road to get this far , dogged by my drug and alcohol addiction, being falsely arrested and facing homelessness , but I’ve got this far. I’m feeling very anxious because if I’m not backed the kids go in care , I couldn’t live with myself if that happened !! Trying to keep myself mentally busy until the meeting . I was hoping by blogging it it might help, doesn’t appear to be 😀
I am 10 months clean and sober and I’ve turned my life around with the help of God , but will it be enough?!
sorry it’s been so long since I’ve blogged , I’ll try to get back into the swing of things . So much has happened, the main thing is that social services are looking at me for full custody of my children. I’m now 9.5 months clean and sober and life is amazing. I see my kids 3 or 4 times a week and have just had a weeks holiday with them.
It’s been a lot of work , drug tests , councilling , risk assessments but I’m getting close now. I’m no longer the problem.
Will write more soon , God bless
Is probably one of the hardest things anyone can do. I’m an addict and alcoholic , albeit in recovery , but I’ve put everyone who loves me through so much pain and anguish.
I’ve also been in love with an alcoholic and that is a test I wouldn’t recommend, however by the time we find out it’s normally too late. Love can’t just be switched off , however much you might want to. My ex is currently fighting the disease of alcoholism and she’s doing really well , and she’s doing it without medication or hospital care, it’s amazing to see someone coming back to life, I hope she makes it.
For families of alcoholics/addicts it must be heart breaking , seeing your child or brother or sister , slowly committing suicide in front of your eyes . It’s only getting clean that has allowed me to see the real damage I done in my active addiction , it’s going to take a very long time to heal.
If I could give anyone advice , I would say , let the addict or alcoholic hit rock bottom, you can’t save them, trying to save them could kill them.
After 7.5 months I’ve just seen my wife again, first she called and then we met. When we first spoke on the phone she said she was sober and working the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous , it soon became apparent she’s not. Her drinking is like mine was 7 years ago , chaotic and unmanageable !! I feel for her but she needs to have the desire to stop and I don’t think she’s quite there yet.
I can’t have any contact with her while she’s not sober, it frightens me, if I could save her I would but I’m not God . I pray so hard that she finds the power to get a day sober and that she’s able to then keep adding days , just as I’ve done.
I’m sitting here writing this scared she will kill herself , I know I’m powerless over her , but our kids adore her so much and need their mum. I don’t know what else to write but if you read this and you have a prayer life , please pray that she gets sober.
I miss my kids every waking moment , I have them once a week just for a few hours and it’s so hard when they go back , the thing is if I had them more I might not be able to work my drug recovery as hard as I do. So at the moment it’s helping me , I have to see it that way, God will put them in my life more when I’m ready.
Recovering from drug addiction is hard but I’m clean and free from that awful way of life, I haven’t had to spend thousands hiding in hospitals or treatment centres that rarely work , I’ve done it front line , I’ve had all types of stuff thrown at me , including false accusations and arrest, not once did I think of using , God is in my life and I’m safe and protected. Recovery is possible , you just have to want it.